See even in my anger and hurt I learned how not to express everything I'm really feel because I never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings and once it comes off the tongue you can't really take it back. I also know that I won't say anything in anger that I don't mean. I believe that when you can say it in anger and if it can roll off your tongue so easy that's how you felt before you got angry so sometimes an apology isn't good enough. I've always hated name-calling or play fighting because in my house it was done so often, for real it wasn't playing it was abuse and abuse was no stranger in my world. So as a woman I grew up that way constantly pushing how I feel aside, including love, for the sake of the next person missing out on certain things in life because I didn't speak up. From watching my mother, aunts and women on the street get beaten. How is a woman to know when she's found the right one? Who was looking out for me but God, so I've always had to stand up for myself, no one has ever had my back, but I grew up knowing that.