Between 1992 and 2004 I wrote some unfinished texts, a part of them, now out-of-print, having been published by publishers in Nice, and the others, from 2001, unpublished. These texts precede my ""Mars Girl"" thriller, which broke my works on the Web. By reworking them in a final form, I wanted to tell the story of an intellectual evolution as if it were about a fiction, defining a narrative essay, between an essay and a novel. Esthetic, psychoanalytical and spiritual inspired, the approach moves from theory to imaginary, with sometimes precise bibliographic references, especially in art criticism. It questions the individual as a problem, and contradictory faces philosophical trends, laying the groundwork for a poetic thought in progress. Words are the main characters, as traces of someone in the world.