Walking away from her was the hardest decision I ever made. Leaving her without an explanation broke us both. Our hearts have been left shattered. I could make excuses. I could lay the blame on others, but still I made the decision. I had to. It was the only way to protect the both of them. After all of Allie's loss, my thought was only on her and her happiness. On her love and need for her big brother. I was replaceable, Kyle wasn't. I wouldn't allow him to crush her heart with his death. I knew I had to follow him. I would throw myself on top of bombs, in front of bullets, whatever it took to get him home to her, alive. There are two sides to every story, and you've only heard one. Don't be so quick to judge; I hate myself for what I've done. But all that I did, it was all for Allie.