In this moving and lyrical coming-of-age story, Julius, a troubled kid from the south side of Chicago, battles haunting demons, both perceived and real, in his search for love and acceptance. Throughout his journey, he struggles at his core to find the meaning of love, and what it takes to be open, vulnerable, and present. Follow him through years of seeking connection, failed relationships, and depression, until at long last, his journey brings him face to face with himself and God. Dr. Bailey's memoir is a much needed tome that highlights the both the reality of black male frailty and the necessity for self introspection. His personal journey serves as a reminder of the need for rituals of healing, therapy, and wholeness. -Kamasi Hill, PhD, educator and filmmaker Julius Bailey is one of the leading philosophers of his generation. In this powerful and painful memoir he delves into the profound depths of his own wounded soul and emerges with a shining dignity and witness. Don't miss this timely text! -Cornel West, Professor of Public Philosophy, Harvard University