The death of his wife left the author devastated. The book describes how he dealt with the situation by critically analyzing his emotions, his feelings and his new status as a widower. From the beginning he managed to recognize the threats to his attempts to stay on top of this tremendous loss and he carefully chose his own special ways to fight these dangers. He discovered the perfect way to make himself feel good and from that mentally strong position he succeeded in getting a new life on the rail, in which he found new happiness.