This book is a kind of personal diary, or book of hours, that has been compiled and edited many times for over half a centuruy. It describes a developing search to find perspective, meaning and peace of mind with advancing age in an ever enlarging mind space where many factors are unknown or even unknowable and where man's understanding of "truths" evolves. We cannot know the size of the universe and no one knows how the brain produces consciousness. And we understand the nature of only about five percent of the mass and energy in the universe. But we have a "psyche," that is not easily explained using science or logic, that makes use of feelings, emotions, memories and a sense of spiritual force that allows us to search for meaning and peace of mind as we approach our end of life.