Personal memoirs can be so difficult to write if you are totally determined to tell crucial truths. As it says in the title and the subtitle this is a story of great transformation from absolute failure of mind to a state where I can rationally narrate my story.A fault in the psyche of the kind I had is extremely dangerous for a person studying a sensitive technology like nuclear technology. It puts to grave potential peril much more than the individual concerned.This is also a cautionary tale for those who harbor generalized ill will for other people and nations and practice deception as a way of life. For in the long run it may prove to be their undoing. In this respect this is a moral writing. It is aimed at bringing back to life dead consciences. This is not in any way a technical book or a professional psychological study. Deluded Nuker is an exhortation through my own example for other persons who have become seriously infirm, or who were born challenged, to believe that they can become useful in many ways. They ought not to believe in lifelong uselessness. They can start anytime this realization sinks in.During my reconstruction and transformation I realized that many others may be afflicted with my kind of madness especially in the ethos I've emerged from. This book is also a preemptive corrective for them.It is, so to say, a soul laid bare helping my devastated life to re-emerge by providing it a new meaning. Deluded Nuker is especially recommended to people who want to understand the core motivations of those they view as subhuman monsters - on both sides of the great divide.