"When you're so used to so much bad in life, how can one rummage to the good?" Those who know Karla Denise Baker a.k.a Necey are wondering the same exact thing. How can one woman go through so much hell and still bring a smile to her face? How can she encourage others when her own life is in such disarray? This candid memoir is a tell-all of how bleak her life was and to a certain extent still is, but it also explains how her marriage saved her from life's destructions. She shows how hope and faith and dreaming keep her pushing forward to find solace and drench herself in happiness. "There I stood on Main Street downtown Paterson, New Jersey; staring in this storefront looking at the clothes and shoes I had given away. Clothes I used to wear when my life was stable.