FBI & An Ordinary Guy, -The Private Price of Public Service - is a memoir about the many chilling, sometimes comical, events in a career as an FBI agent and the personal price some of us paid. For me, coming from a rough childhood I confronted the choices of becoming a clergyman, crook or cop. As an FBI agent in New York and other large American cities, we faced outlaw motorcycle gangs, the Mafia, drug kingpins, and terrorists; land pirates. I personally had many successes, but hard-won victories eventually sapped my energy and spirit. Along the way I had to come to grips with the murders of a squad partner, two New York City cops and several government witnesses. The public knows little about the stress and high emotional costs the guardians of their safety pay in the constant battle against crime and terror. The favorite antidotes of many law enforcement peers -crawling into a bottle or the wrong bed-proved to provide little long-lasting comfort. FBI & An Ordinary Guy reveals the inner working of the FBI, the humanness of its family members, and the real life story behind some of its major cases. But, this factual account is told through a genuine framework of the bitter sweet contrast of the gritty horrors of law enforcement versus affectionate father to daughter communication via never mailed letters to my children.