The clinic of suicidal and suicidal adolescents leads me to consider their destructive acts as staging a subjective disappearance and a desperate struggle for existence. As I mentioned in my theoretical part, it is possible to evoke a narcissistic collapse as a trigger for the violent act, which then represents a proof of existence and not the result of a psychic construction, hence its aggressive drive aspect. Such acts are not situated in the register of the transgression of the Law or of a challenge to the surmoid limits, but come to dislodge the Other in order to destroy him. Attesting to a failure of the imaginary, the suicidal act comes from the field of primary narcissism and archaic jouissance. However, this psychotherapeutic process as well as my research work offered me the possibility of renewing my links with distressed adolescence, asking to be listened to, recognized in society and in its singularity, something that nourishes my enthusiasm and my love for research and investigation of the adolescent universe.