Though Jerome ""Jay"" Isip now enjoys the success of being a professional MMA fighter, entrepreneur, and author, he is no stranger to the feelings of self-doubt, depression, and lack of direction that many people--young and old, male and female-- struggle with at one point or another in life. This candid, autobiographical book tells of Jay's journey to find his identity and his own version of ""happy"" in early adulthood through self-destructive means like alcohol, a myriad of drugs, and other risky behavior, and how he pulled himself back from the edge of the abyss, finding the courage to live a life of clarity and purpose after discovering what true, lasting happiness in life is all about.