This book is a collection of my experiences with God and hope in the midst of great pain. It may seem as though, upon first glance that I treat my pain as though it's the worst pain in the world. Truly, it is the worst pain anyone can know ... just as your unique pain and loss are the worst anyone can know This is because it can't be shared with anyone else, no matter how similar the experience. Your experience of pain is truly "other," just as mine is. There is a measure of desperate hope in feeling this way, because if this is the worst it can possibly get, then it has to get better. My hope is that in reading this book, you are encouraged, challenged, and most importantly liberated to feel what you need to feel even if you feel no one could possibly ever hurt as badly as you do now. It's all part of the process. May some part of my journey be a stepping-stone for you.