Seventeen-year-old Christia Carter fell in love with the boy of her dreams: a charming, confident, yet sometimes confusing, AJ Taylor. However, despite a year of spontaneous adventures downtown, late-night conversations, and regaining self-confidence together, he strangely disappears. Missing him desperately and confused as to why he would abandon her, Christia comes up with one possibility: maybe AJ never loved her at all. After battling long, sleepless nights, judgmental lectures from her religious parents, dark thoughts clouding her mind, and questions regarding her self-worth, Christia is a set on a journey to find out who she is mentally, emotionally, and spiritually with a growing hope that maybe, she can live without AJ after all. Questions about self-love, homosexuality, 'religion' vs. Christianity, betrayal of friends, along with other provocative issues are deftly explored and fleshed out in this captivating novel. Readers of all ages will find something of value in its pages.