"I don't want you to think too hard about this," Dr. Erickson says cautiously. But I am thinking about it. I'm thinking about how I hate to be touched, how I push men away, and how deeply afraid I am of sex. For the first time in my life I wonder why. What happened in that room that permanently stopped me from having intimate relationships? What did I do? When an event triggers Laureen Peltier's memories of sexual abuse at the hands of her father, she finds she must confront and reconcile the partial memories that have emerged. During a crisis, she meets Dr. Erickson, a male psychiatrist who agrees to help her. Tired of living in fear of touch, Laureen gives him one year to help her heal and come to terms with her childhood. His unconventional therapies and Laureen's own resolution to understand the past results in her fighting mentally and physically to integrate her memories of a scared little girl with the now grown woman who hungers for meaningful relationships, love, intimacy and sex. "Wrenching and awe-inspiring." Indie Reader "A strong and honest memoir people will come to respect." Readers' Favorite