At the age of six, Estie was kidnapped by her father, a diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic. He was a street-preacher and self proclaimed evangelist. They hitchhiked (with two younger siblings) across the US, in thirteen different states, from North Carolina to California. Her father's mission in life was to load ships with Bibles to be delivered to Communist China and distributed to all the "lost and dying souls." Journey with her, as they stick their thumbs in the air, hoping for a ride to the next town while their Daddy often hid in the bushes or ditches. Frequently, they were left alone in waiting rooms of bus stations without supervision or money for food. A constant threat from Estie's father was foremost on her mind: "John Edgar Hoover will rape you before you are twenty-one years old." Her fear of her father is written with tenderness, disappointment, and the indoctrination that a child should honor her father - no matter what.