A LOOK INSIDE my world I began sowing young I had seen so many die suddenly, slowly, miraculously I began to understand the value of a life and a life unfulfilled. dozens of funerals, wakes, repasses, phone calls, news reports, social media posts I keep trying to count how many people I have known to live and then die, so dad and I can think back, do the math to figure out how old I was always wondering who's next?