This is the third book in the trilogy, and is in part, my autobiography that focuses on four years of my journey, (1997 - 2000). This book contains selected entries from my journals along with messages I received from my Spirit guides. My breakthrough came in 1997, when I was led to the RUOW books that made me aware of the unseen role that denial was playing in my life. Obvious denials are easy to spot, but it's the subtle unseen ones that do even more damage to our psyche and directly affect our experiences. My struggle was in trying to put the esoteric concepts from the RUOW books and the messages from my Spirit guides into physical reality. Knowledge and doing are two different things. What I share are the thoughts, feelings and emotions I had, along with the trials and tribulations I went through in ending my denials that culminated with profound healing experiences. Even though we may be of different gender or race, have different customs, traditions and experiences, the feelings of heartbreak, terror, anger, rage, etc., are the same, and all are related to lack of self-acceptance and self-love. If you're able to feel and see what I was going through and what I was, and was not doing, and relate that to your issues and experiences, it will be another tool for your healing journey.