"You've no idea what's happening to you, have you?" the doctor asked. She was right. In 2010 Alison Bryson had a nervous breakdown. She didn't know people who had breakdowns. She didn't know what to do with herself being unable to work. She didn't know if she would recover and be able to live independently again. She just didn't know. This is her story of not recognising herself or the mind that she'd known for forty years. Of being looked after by her parents in the Scottish village where she grew up. And of the people and activities she encountered, that brought joy back into her life.