Have you ever tried really hard to remember events from your childhood? For most that is normal, but for Barbara Farris, that's the last thing she wants to do. Memories equal pain and pain equals a long struggle to find peace. Though a successful and strong-minded business woman today; it came through work and perseverance, not through strong family support. This book is one woman's account of a life of uphill battles and the ongoing process of learning to let go, while continuing to push forward. Barbara details her childhood as the daughter of a Minister who was married to another Minister. She recalls dreams of becoming a lawyer so she could put away criminals. She shares her decision to walk away from abuse, forcing her to drop out of school and leave home at 17. She shares many experiences where she allowed others to take advantage of her along life's road, because she wanted so desperately to trust again. Through her book Barbara attempts to reach out to parents who might opt to turn their head to abuse of their children, for the sake of pride or reputation. She reminds parents that child abuse or the condoning of child abuse is unacceptable, unjustifiable and more likely than not - unforgivable.