It started out as an innocent blog. I just wanted to tell the world about my life. That was harmless right? Wrong. I didn't realise just what I did, how many lives I destroyed and how many people I lost because of my own need to vent about my issues with men. I didn't realise what my judgement of other's caused. I didn't realise watch a selfish, terrible and evil person I was. Not until I finally had something to lose. He came into my life like a whirlwind. He showed me passion like I've never known. He challenged me at every step and broke down my defences. He took a selfish girl and made her feel. But then our secrets got in the way. My inability to see him as anything different than every other guy that I had met. His aversion to giving all of him without the guarantee of receiving all of me. It was all leading up to one life altering night. One life altering moment that would make or break our future. The problem was whether or not we could find our forever. *Warning; Adult content. Recommended for readers 18+*