Christian Slander, a man on a journey, going from a Rock & Roll lifestyle, living like a Rockstar, touring around the country, living above a Punk Rock bar, chasing wild women, getting high and drunk, to being forced into the adult world, plain old Christiaan Pasquale, having to take up a job driving 18-wheelers, working fourteen-hour days, sleepless nights, long, lonely roads, overworked, underpaid, isolated, and hopeless.His friends are strung out losers, his pockets are empty in spite of working like a dog, his health is failing, delirious with exhaustion, seeking some semblance of his former life.He's had a longing, one that's haunted him for decades, a name, a woman, one that was always out of reach. Someone he deemed his soulmate in spite of her barely acknowledging his existence...Miss Lourdes Malum.With nothing else to lose, he decides to roll the dice and pursue the woman of his dreams. Along the way, he faces ghosts from his past, loses people precious to him, contends with his discontent, the passing of time, the cops, the crooks, the bosses, the futile stride for fulfillment, the ugly world he sought to escape for most of his adult life. He learns many lessons along the way, about love, loss, and in the end, his ability to survive it all.