You don't expect when you get married for the first time that it would end in such a way as mine did. I went from being this blushing bride and this awesome newlywed wife to a guy who I thought was my heaven sent to a woman that felt damaged, scorned, and abused. When I found out I was pregnant I was excited and that quickly ended Nov 21, 2007. Numb is the only word to describe how I felt when the doctor said to me that I was HIV Positive. I was a new bride, newly pregnant and newly infected. All by my husband. You think you know everything there is to know about someone before you marry them only to find out it was all hidden and you were being fed lies. Never once did I think I was going to die. The only fear I had for my future was rejection and that still didn't stop me from being open about my status from the beginning and sharing my story with the world.