I am a physician who's just made a mess of my life. I've done some very horrible things in life. What I've done recently is about to ruin my career, and make me unemployable. My family has gone through so much because of my poor decisions. I'm trying to find a way to believe that life will get better. My son has his own demons to deal with. He has been fighting with them half his life already. I want to stay strong for him. I don't know if my wife will leave me. She's stayed by my side through thick and thin. But my actions have been intolerable. I'm making the amends I must. I want a better life for me, for her, and for my son. I really could use that miracle right about now