The book is slightly different from the first (English language) edition. The first part (chapters 1 - 12) contains the essential, in my opinion, memories of my life. These individual images from the past, which characterize the atmosphere in the Soviet Union, I lived. The following describe the ideas that seem interesting. It drew attention to some of the assumptions of the world of physics appeared in the media, and which for many years are available on my website. For example, - The assumption that elementary particles are microscopic black holes. - In September 2011 was reported as a new phenomenon, that it is possible, and obtained in the experiment, a speed, which exceeds the speed of light. In the papers on the physics, this phenomenon is well known for long, however without explanation. For many years on my website stated hypothesis to explain this phenomenon.