"This anecdotal diary, once a blog aptly named 'Pendulum Pregnancy: A Beautiful Chaos, ' captures a self-transformation into motherhood. It was just the beginning of necessary transcendence; the first step in separation from an insidious mental illness diagnosis that will not allow itself to be ignored, despite prescribed little blue and pink imagination slayers. I grieved, I held fast to the want-to-be existential ways of MYSELF. The break up was intense But that moment when I realized the responsibility of another life was in my arms, MYSELF begrudgingly climbed out of my mind and leapt one arm's length away from ME." Amanda Grieme Diagnosed with Rapid-Cycling Bipolar Disorder when she was 20-Years-Old, Amanda writes to help readers through her experience. She shares how she stays afloat in this ever-cycling existence, dizzying as motherhood may feel at times. Grieme's daughter has officially saved her from self-deprecation; woe (is me) begone Whether pregnant, coping with mental illness, both or none-of-the-above, you will find comfort and wisdom in Grieme's words, peace in her music selections, inspiration in Kunzman's art, and laughter at the sheer lunacy of it all.