Where do you find resilience when given "the worst possible" diagnosis? And what does it mean to truly heal, no matter the state of your body?


At 35 and newly married, psychotherapist and Buddhist practitioner Teri Dillion thought she had arrived at the satisfied life she'd long wished for. But once diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's disease (ALS) and told to get her affairs in order before facing total paralysis, she finds herself pertly booted off all lofty perches of personal achievement and easy equanimity.


In the months that follow, she sets out in dizzying pursuit of an unlikely cure, traveling deeper into the byzantine landscapes of modern medicine and questionable promises of alternative healing. Grounded by skepticism as her disability grows, she attempts to court an elusive faith in a miraculous recovery while knocking ever-louder at the door of her own knowing.


In this intimate and entertaining memoir about living with terminal illness, Teri reclaims the mysteries of grace while gently reminding us of the fragile blessings of embodiment. Join her for the journey as she asks if the most brilliant jewels of healing and meaning can be found not in conventional narratives of triumphant recovery, but in what we painstakingly and lovingly carve for ourselves out of life's roughest blows.