During the struggles of life, I had to find more structure based on my experience from childhood to adult years that made me who I am as poet and writer and former active duty soldier: before and after the making of Orders of Love System, after marriage to special lady of my life, and during the first and second period of service to my country, even living regrets from not having more advancement and accomplishment. I try to find peace in my mind and soul. Even after soldiers' nightmares, a new nightmare has approached me. As past pounded my dreams, I set on a mission of love and build a stronger family for my generations of present and future can understand. Living to understand balance of success and happiness, I learned that structure is way of life having writing guide to guide me through the life struggles, which makes preventing nightmare possible. Through my understanding and experience, without structure in my life, there would be chaos in my life. My struggles of life came upon me after separation from the service that I really love-the military. With my wife of present and future, every warrior has a mission. My mission is the mission of love for my present and future generation.