When someone brings a gun into the hospital, the world flips upside down. I quickly learned I couldn't trust anyone when he slipped away and I wondered if I could even trust myself. There was a time when I welcomed the shadows with open arms. They comforted me with protection from the nightmares. They settled my anxiety and became my greatest companion. They reminded me of my enemies, warning me I wasn't safe. But there came a time when I feared them, afraid the darkness would consume me and I'd never find the light again. I became isolated, consumed by my fear of the night.