Shattered to be made whole is the real life story of a girl who at the very beginning of her conscious being, went through a sexual experience that was not of her choosing which later set her off in one relational trap after another fuelled by low self-worth, insecurity and lust. She eventually consciously chose the worst path for her life; that of remaining in a relationship where she was mentally abused and psychologically torn to shreds by the man she loved and couldn't leave or get over no matter what he did to her. The worse her lover got, the more Rene's resolve to stay with him grew, out of her "Christian duty." Read her story interspersed with journal entries along her life's progress and learn how she eventually is able to find freedom from the perils of lust and the relationship that broke her in every single way. In the book Rene writes, "He came home drunk and when she went to let him in, he tried to force himself on her and I cried my little 7 year old self in bed. She tried to yell under his 200 pound body . . .He scorned her for even trying to cry out for help." "Almost all men were potential sex mates and they really were in my impure visuals . . .the more I prayed and fasted for deliverance, the more these images would hound me and flood my thoughts and dreams." "I intentionally stayed away from . . .believers . . .maybe they would be able to tell that I wasn't pure, that I was ruined, at least that's what I felt like, ruined goods. " ." . .there before my very eyes, was the mark I saw in the porn video. The exact same mark on the exact same leg and I froze. ""Why do you look like you've just seen a ghost?" he asked"