This book is a complete work of vanity. In an attempt to clean a real milestone after a few years of setbacks and backslides, J Cleveland Payne began an all-out attempt to produce a decent book he could present as a memoir for the first 40 years of his life. You can be the judge of whether this book is truly worthy of being graded as 'decent, ' but Payne did succeed in producing a book, and triumphantly hit is target of being released before his 40th birthday on September 29th, 2014. This may not be happy book full of extraordinary success, but it does chronicle the mind of a man reaching a milestone. Payne offers up his true feelings of his past struggles and regrets, along with admitting to some obvious issues (he really is crazy). He reveals some uncertainty he has for whatever time he may have left while sharing the joys and struggles of fatherhood with a virtual adult and an actual toddler. In the process of weaving tales with a lot more woe than expected, but some general moments of joy and wonder, Payne reveals some life lessons that were brought to focus along his personal journey, most of which were even attempted to follow to varying degrees of success or failure. It might not be a book about a pivotal member of our generation, but Payne decided to be brave enough to make an attempt at immortality through words in a book that will mean something to his family and friends. Whoever you happen to be and whenever you happen across this book, Payne hopes you enjoy it, and learn a few things from it as well.