Five years after first living in the Indian Ocean Territories, Rene Pettitt-Schipp finds herself returning, haunted by memories of the asylum seekers she taught there in Australias detention system. Why do the islands still have a hold on her? Why are her memories such troubled ones? And why can she not let go? Closer to Indonesia than Australia, Christmas Island and Cocos (Keeling) Islands are out of sight and out of mind to most Australians, but they are the sites of some of our frontier wars, the places where our identity is laid bare in all its flawed complexity and the places where there is time and space enough to ask: can we be better than this? A travel narrative, a memoir and a thought-provoking look at Australias complicated history with Christmas and Cocos (Keeling) Islands and the asylum seekers detained there.