I always thought I'd just curl up and die if I was ever diagnosed with cancer or any other life-threatening disease. But I surprised myself. I had more strength than I knew I had. I decided I wanted to live. Cancer is a bitch. My ability to find humor even in the lowest points of my life, and my determination to deal with the disease with as much grace as possible, got me through. Many cancer patients, I learned, shut themselves off from everything - work, play, love, sex. But I didn't. Yes, I felt horrible for many months of my journey, but I still forged on. I exercised, I went to rock concerts, I was at the helm of a 161-foot sailboat and I even made love to a man I treasured, when I had one breast. This is my story about a girl, a woman, going through the horror of breast cancer, yet trying to remain among the living.