I don't think I'm saved after all. I told God that if I ever figured this thing out that I would scream it to the mountain tops. Little did I know that this thing does not get figured out. I have however gotten certain revelations throughout my life. This is a book about growth. This is my journey to salvation, if I ever get there. This is my personal diary, poetry that I have kept for years. This book is the thoughts that so many of us share. Hopefully reading some of my thoughts and beliefs, people will come to relate. It could help people understand that the thoughts that they are having are not so irrational after all. Aren't we all saying to ourselves, is this right? Is this wrong? Am I really saved? What is salvation? We all want to live this life that is pleasing to God but we struggle with so much of insecurities, doubts, sins, and habitual patterns and we find ourselves either accepting our faults or really hating ourselves. It seems like people battle between being themselves or putting on this so called saved facade. This book reveals my frustrating walk to so called salvation. This reveals my deepest secrets and suspicions. I hold nothing back. This is a book of uncertain certainties. Some things we just do not know and it's okay. Some things we question and it's okay. God is not mad. The intent of this book is to put every reader into their own metamorphosis, giving them a better understanding of their salvation. This is the book of transformation.