Presented the actual diary of Anna Anahit Paitian, an American-Armenian novelist, poetess, author, and scholar. The diary includes the real events of the author's life, which have historical significance, showing the collapse of the Soviet Communist civilization and its aftermath. The true nature of the atheist society is exposed in dept. It required gigantic efforts for an individual living in that society to preserve the human integrity. The USSR atheistic civilization was a paranormal reality, in which the mediated evolution of natural human can take an unpredictable course. What was once thoroughly controllable, can outgrow over time into a formidable universal calamity out of control.