How is it possible to feel everything and nothing at the same time? It was the hardest thing for me to explain, I had reached a point in my life where nothing made sense and everything was going wrong. I had no grasp of any situation, chaos was at my doorstep and I stood ready to open it. I've said NEVER time and time again and more often than not, I've done nothing more than prove myself to be a liar. There's good and bad in us all and we all tend to have our own ideas of what respect, truth, right & wrong are, but by who's standard do you live? No one really knows what action they will take until they're faced with the opportunity to do just that, A.C.T. (Assert Certain Theologies). This is my story, Alicia Watts, without the sweet aroma of apologies or excuses. It is what it is; life - my perception of LIFE I make no apologies for my journey to my destined place in Christ, but I must warn you that the contents of this book are graphic at times. I was tempted to remove much of the graphic content so nobody would feel uncomfortable or question the validity of my walk with God, but I could not I had to be as transparent as possible so that others could see where I was and how far I've come. My hope is that others who have had similar experiences can find the same freedom that I have found in Him. I have learned so many life lessons from my mistakes, my bad behavior, and my disobedience. To be quite honest, I enjoyed my sin. I experienced a lot of pleasure and it was difficult to separate myself from it, but I did. I have declared Proverbs 3: 5-6 over my life for as long as I can remember, "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." I can't say that I always understood why I took the path that I did, but I can say that in good and bad, obedience and disobedience, I trusted God to make it all work out in the end This is my journey and if you are ready, I invite you to come along for the ride