'I want to tell her I hate myself, or that I'm scared of myself, this self she's drawing out of me, but all of this just comes out in a moan that's as sexual as it's lost...' The thrilling conclusion to Series 1 will push the reader to their limit just as Joel is pushed to his. 'When I look back to Sylvia, she's staring directly into my eyes, in love, filled with anticipation, and all I can think to say, spinning inside a lobotomised-like awe is, 'My turn?' Note: Some scenes contain explicit adult material. For mature readers only.