This is a raw and uncensored account of what it has been like for me to quit smoking. Getting clean is messy and ugly. I make no attempt to hide it. I speak openly of earlier addictions as well as the root cause of my addictive patterns. This journal has tremendous power and intensity because it's written in real time. The reader watches me go through the first shattering hours and days of withdrawal. How does it feel when the madness is upon you, consuming your thoughts and emotions; what do you do? Where do you find sanity when every cell of your body is screaming in pain? How do you hold on while being buried in an avalanche of physical and psychological agony? This journal is a fresh approach to answering those questions using simple spiritual practices and practical techniques. I want to live life joined with others who are not addicted, who live in peace and harmony. If, like myself, you are ready to work through addiction, then I am here. Through these words, we are joined in the cleansing fire. I will walk with you one day at a time. I am not going to pretend it's going to be easy, but I will stay the course. If you are ready then let us begin. Debi Hartfield