I would like all of my readers to know that I never imagined my life being this way. I never really understood why I had to have this testimony. All I ever wanted was to be found by the man of my dreams, get married, and live happy ever after. Life is full of lessons and it's what you learn from those lessons that make you the person you will become. For years I was ashamed of my past and I never wanted to talk about it. I was very bitter and I blamed God for my loss. It seemed like God was against me and every man who came into my life was taken away. I felt that God could have changed my situation at any time but He didn't. I wanted God to make them act right. I was an emotional wreck. I thought I was blessed and cursed at the same time. I was blessed to get the man but cursed because I couldn't keep the man. I hope you really understand what I'm saying. The marriages were honorable in the sight of God but the marriages were not what God wanted for me. It was what I wanted for me. I learned the hard way that every person who comes into your life was not supposed to stay in your life. Sometimes God allows people to cross your path to deposit into you for you to receive from. There's an attraction which draws people to you when you are set apart from the world. I went through spiritual counseling with the leaders of my church trying to make sense of it all. My past haunted me for years. I thought something was wrong with me and the enemy always agreed. He would tell me to kill myself, "Won't nobody miss you. You are a disgrace to the church." Wow It was so intense that I began contemplating suicide, but God He assured me that there was nothing wrong with me. He told me, "You just made some unwise choices alone the way." I had to forgive myself which was extremely hard to do. It took years to get over all that I had done. I am still amazed at how God would comfort my heart and mind and allow peace to abide within my soul. It was beyond comprehending. That's when I knew that I had to share my story. People can be so cruel and judgmental, especially church people. It's sad to say but it's the truth anyhow We must be careful how we treat others. It doesn't matter by this time that I had been married seven times, I still belong to God I truly thank God for the woman I am today. What didn't kill me made me stronger All glory belongs to God.