Mercedez always wanted to become a writer. She wrote her first book, "This is a Confusing Life" in the sixth grade. It now represents a glimpse of her dilemma in trying to understand who and why she was and is included in its entirety. As she became older, she wanted to write her story. She expressed this time and time again. I made a promise to her through the heavens above that I would write her story one day, but could not when I was so broken hearted. There have been many days I have just wanted to throw all of her writings back into the crates I found them in, because it has been so very painful. I cannot bring her back, which is the only thing that would heal my pain. But, I can try to do this last thing for her. She was Rog, Spencer and Mercedez but she was always a SHE. She had been on a continuous quest her entire life, searching for who and why she was. No one wakes up to say, I want to be "Trans." Mercedez thought her story would help others that were struggling with the same problems, and help their families and the world to understand their plight. She was an innovative child; a light, a precious, inquisitive, beautiful child misunderstood by so many including her family. Mercedez was a TRILOGY. Many thought of her as distorted and complicated. Time after time she was tortured by "Life" itself.