If you have lost someone to suicide, you are not alone on your grief journey. This book will provide insight on navigating the grief process and searching for healing. The light shining at the end of the tunnel is this: pain is real but so is hope. This book will also provide guidance for friends and associates who don't know what to say or do to help those grieving such an incomprehensible loss. This is not a "how to" book. This is the raw, honest story of one real woman's loss of a loved one to suicide. It's a story of the grief, guilt, regret, disbelief, and shock that comes with such a devastating act. It's a story any of us could find ourselves in - in one shattering, unexpected instant. And it is a story about the hope and healing that truly is possible after such a loss. This book covers a variety of topics, from the personal to the practical, such as: -He's Gone: the immediate aftermath of a suicide -Medical Examiners, Cemetery Shopping & Evidence Bags -Unfixable & Unanswered Questions -Words That Wound & Choosing Battles -When Faith Isn't Enough And much more… The author's personal journey: On August 13, 2016, I began my journey when I lost my father to suicide. I'd like to say I've walked it gracefully but I haven't. Shock, disbelief, and instant devastation. Tears mixed with anger followed by questions that will never be answered. The grief journey after losing a loved one to suicide begins, and unfortunately, it never ends. Pain is real, but so is hope. Upon searching for ways to cope with my loss, I found very little I could relate to. I needed raw emotion from fellow survivors of suicide loss. I needed to know I wasn't crazy for the way I felt. I needed to know I wasn't alone. I needed to hear from others who sat in the mess of a painful, shattered life. What was helping them begin the healing process through their grief? My story is for those of us left behind to agonize over 'what if's' and 'why's.' It is also for anyone who wants to better understand suicide loss. It's a roller coaster, but it is not one that you have to face alone.