Writing this book was extremely emotional, another tough task life presented me with. The loss of Children is traumatic heartbreaking. You and the family go through several phases of grieve which can become overwhelming' We were tied to the hips like glue but somehow it loosened. I have travelled through hell no family or friends to speak of, living on the streets, in and out of many shelters. Wildest minds never imaging the vicious, violent whirling tornados I have lived through. My sons are my life. Suddenly the worst knocking on my door and my world crashed, falling apart breaking my heart into little pieces by what I was hearing. I have always felt unloved, unwanted lost, lonely slowly losing my self-esteem at a young age. Everything including people I treasured and dearly loved stolen, taken out of my life forever. I am mystified and lost resolving into myself knowing I will spend the rest of my time on earth alone with all that has happened I have become an emotional person trusting very few in my path, including family. I strive daily for the strength to deal with great losses in my life. I felt lost, unwanted and lonely always trying to please others only to be taken advantage of. I strive daily for the strength to deal with great losses in my life. My self-esteem slowly disappearing feeling as though I was walking in circles within violent tornados until finally realizing I held an important place in the world. Everything including people I treasured and loved stolen, all taken out of my life forever. with all that has happened I have become an emotional person trusting very few in my path, including family. I struggle and pray every day I will find the strength and somehow get through the heartache when I lost you. I have a blue rose tattoo on my upper right arm with both your names. I think of you both daily bringing rivers of tears to my eyes. Writing this book was extremely emotional, another tough task life presented me with.