After the brutal murder of my brother, the Canadian justice system worked very diligently to ensure that the three people who I believe murdered him got off absolutely scot-free, never to be held responsible for their actions or spend one day in prison. And then the justice system again worked diligently to prevent my family and me from being able to do anything about it. This is a true accounting of what transpired during the past nine years since my brother's death and told in the only way I could tell it without being sent to prison for ignoring the conditions a Supreme Court judge bestowed upon me after the conclusion of the trial. In a country where courts are supposed to be open for public scrutiny, I however, as a secondary victim to murder, have been muzzled and handcuffed. It only goes to show how judges and Crown prosecutors, through their autonomy and independence, can introduce publication bans and court orders and are able to do whatever they please and make whatever rulings they wish, even if their behaviour and decisions are blatantly wrong. This is my story.