Transparency is described and honest, open and not secretive. And while that is true, it is not always easy to be. Not telling the truth comes from a place of fear within. Therefore, it is easier to hide because one cannot be subject to mockery and judgment. I was living in my own little world that took great energy and produced a great amount of stress. Over time, I eventually anesthetized myself. As I continued to write, the I was reminded that in order too completely heal and be fully restored, I had to face the pain and tell the whole truth, I did not think I could survive.