"Mammy, when we grew in your tummy, did we grow there together"? When twins Hope and Morganna asked their innocent question one day they could have had no idea of the emotional journey it was to send their "Mammy" on. For Keri the months that followed were full of other questions that began to make her think. In February 2006 Keri watched as two young girls said a tearful goodbye to their mother. Never before had she faced the reality that she may not be here to tell her girls how it was that Grandma became Mammy, she had always taken for granted that she would be able to tell her girls, in her own words how it came about that they had lost a complete generation of their family. Keri embarked on writing a letter that would if she were not able to do so herself tell all four of her girls what had happened, the letter grew into a book, which Keri knew had to be shared. In her words without apportioning blame Keri shares with her readers the emotional rollercoaster journey that she has travelled in getting a residence order on Hope and Morganna. She tells of her frustration and despair as she realises she is unable to reach her own daughter Bo, and save her from the dark world she seems intent on living in. Then most heartbreakingly of all Keri shares the deepest of sorrows, a pain that will live within her forever - that of having to say goodbye to her own granddaughters - Hope and Morganna's younger sister's. Throughout her story Keri has shown the love and devotion she holds for her family, and how one word came to mean so much for her, a word that even today she holds onto - Hope. Just two days after submitting her final manuscript Keri suffered a double Sub-arachnoid haemorrhage (brain haemorrhage), she is home and well on her way to making a full recovery.