Brenda wants to know where God is. She has always looked for God, but when she looked for Him she never seen any evidence that He is there. She spent her entire life watching her grandma waiting for the mailman to deliver her check, dealing with rape, drugs, pregnancy, and different opinions of her relatives. How can she make a better life for her and her children? What are the secrets to making things better? What about the family life she has always desired? Urban life has never been easy, with it's twist, and turns, and secrets, all of which seems to crash on Brenda's head, right at the wrong moment. With its unique challenges Brenda navigates the ins and outs of her life to try and make things better for her and her children. Does she find what she seeks? Does she ultimately find where the truth of life can be found? Do things improve? Read along in this page turner and discover where she ends up step by step.