Judder Leinenbach grew up in the small Indiana town of Jasper. He was raised in a white collar lower middle-class family by two hardworking parents. An extrovert child he grew up active in sports and had many friends. His world turned upside down at the very young age of 12. The next 3 years he moved around residences between older siblings and parents. The uncertainty of it all fueled the anxiety. The passing years in adolescence built a defense mechanism wall for this kid to survive. His escaped from the pain in the form of listening, writing, and playing music. In 2000, his father was killed in a car accident and he was set off into the world ready or not. The years followed were a series of unfortunate events dealing with young adulthood, alcohol, anxiety, and depression. This book recognizes the song writing struggle between adolescent youth and adulthood.