A rural childhood as the youngest of nine children, neglected and beaten, formed an unpromising start to Ellen Muir's life. An early tragedy deprived her of security, and after World War II she headed for London to find work, freedom from her siblings, and her inner self.Enter Brian - assisted by her landlady, Mrs Brewster. As her husband, he helped Ellen bloom and gave her a new spiritual direction; but as her life's companion he was, alas, dogged by fate. Through many trials, they continued to love each other.Now in her seventies, Ellen recounts the shadows and pain that have marked her days, but also counts her blessings. Friendships survive or fall away; loved ones come and go. Her indomitable spirit remains, for as she says, 'It will not help me if I feel sorry for myself; nor will it help others.'Here is her personal testimony, bearing as it does the breath of an era when domestic troubles were kept behind closed doors, and the word 'abuse' was not read about as it is today. It makes salutary reading, and reminds us not to take anything for granted - least of all our fellow human beings.