You only ever cared for her. Ever. And I loved her too. I loved her so fucking much. But I wanted to cause you pain. I really wanted to cause you so much pain that you'd never be able to breathe again.After the death of a baby on her ward, Lizzy is facing professional repercussions surrounding her duty of care. As she seeks solace in her family home, old tensions rise to the surface as her mum Carol denies her the comfort she requires.A suicide letter from her dead father resurfaces and Lizzy's world continues to crumble around her as childhood blame for the death of her sister aligns with the guilt she is made to feel about her professional misconduct.This taut two-hander is published in Methuen Drama's Lost Plays series, celebrating new plays that had productionspostponed due to the Covid-19 outbreak and the global shutdown of theatre spaces.