In a deep and confiding tell-all memoir, author John Miller shares his background and the events that led him to become a pastor-and how he learns to deal with the shroud of depression hanging over his life. As a teen, John Miller often butt heads with his Marine-turned-pastor dad-a visceral tension that led to John's rebellion against the local church during his teen years. In his memoir My Suicide Note: Searching For Purpose, John recounts his life's most influential moments and greatest failures... including two suicide attempts. Filled with profound sadness and a close-to-the-chest narrative, My Suicide Note: Searching For Purpose describes the havoc John's depression had on his life. In addition, it illustrates a very real account of someone searching for meaning amid suffering. Through his memoir, John hopes to connect with readers through his story. He intends the book to give an inside look at how depression can cause suicidal ideation. The most important lesson from this book? "I would like readers to know they are not alone in their struggles," said John. This book will resonate with any reader who has been haunted by depression. It also offers help and facilitated understanding to loved ones whose family or friends suffer from depression's debilitating effects.