A young woman decided that she would take matters into her own hands if she could not live the life she always wanted. As a young woman, her father would always encourage her to be her best and that she would become a wonderful human being. She knew her biological parents love her, but when her mother left her and her five siblings behind, she questioned the love of her mother. Mariana knew that she was daddy's little girl, but she did not know if her mother felt the same about her. She knew exactly the kind of life she wanted when she grows up, but after the death of her father, she knew it would be a struggle staying on track. She was quite determined to rise up in spite of her adversities. After the death of her father, she moved in with her auntie. She hoped that she would feel love again, but unfortunately, it was the beginning of a difficult journey. She had some of the most grueling experiences in her life that, at times, she wished she was dead and buried next to her daddy. Mariana was determined to make a life for herself. Luck came when she met a family who fell in love with her and decided to take her in. At that point, she knew that she would be able to get an education and fulfill that long-anticipated dream. She wanted all the good things in life, but she knew that those good things come at a cost. As she began her new life with this family, she had some of the greatest experiences, and it was the first time that she actually felt loved since the death of her father and the absence of her mother. Her life at her new home was certainly a new experience, but it was too good to be true. Mariana, at a tender age, was exposed to sex by her foster father, who got her pregnant while she was still a child. From that point on, she became a lover of sex, which resulted in her many pregnancies. This riveting tale takes one deep into the life of a woman who fought for the life she wanted but faced many obstacles that forced her to go from one relationship to another. In her quest to find a husband and create the ideal family for herself, her luck led her down a path that was truly painful for her. She had many children with men who had no interest in staying with her. Did she ever get that life that she anticipated? It was not until all the rules in the book were broken that she actually found love after giving up on the world to become a nun. Her feelings could not be easily suppressed, so she had to find a way to satisfy her craving even if she had to bring someone into her sacred space. The convent was not off-limits when it comes to a woman who would take the ultimate risk to obtain love. This explorative journey takes the reader on a mission to a place that was dark and vacant, but change will come and will reside in the heart of a woman who was beaten down by selfish men who think only of themselves as they seek pleasure from those who are weak and are unable to resist the undeniable feeling of love.